Friday, April 27, 2007

Do Some Charity!



Yes, I'm talking to you. Who are you looking at? Charity can be done in many ways and Oxfam has a really cool (and cheap) way for you and me. Have you heard of the White Band? No? Shame on you. Hahaha.. ok ok.. neither have I until Oxfam set up shop in Mac Cen. You know how we get yellow LIVESTRONG bands? Yup, they have white MAKEPOVERTYHISTORY bands and they're only for $2! Imagine! I sometimes wonder how much help we are really giving by contributing just that small amount. Hmm....

And, this thought came to me while I was reading my notes in the kitchen with Shaun cooking in front of me: are those bands biodegradable? Are they harmful to the environment? They'd better not be! Shaun said that they could be recycleable. But hey, even recycling uses energy and produces greenhouse gases right? So, what's the point?

Sigh, I guess you can't have the best of everything, eh? Even if you don't want to buy it for the sake of helping, buy it because it looks cool. Ok?

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Changes


A change is occuring. Not only in the weather but also in life. Yes, it is the time of life when big, adult decisions need to be made. Now I really wonder why when we were younger we were so eager to grow up. Seriously, now I actually want to turn back time. I seriously do miss high school, when personal problems were the end of the world, when nothing else matters other than turning up for volleyball practice.

Like how blue skies of white clouds can become a plane of grey pouring down with rain, decisions made long again can be questioned now. I feel that I'm a little 'slow' in that sense. Or am I too 'fast'?

I've always wanted to teach. I know, almost all little girls would reply 'Guru', 'Penyanyi', 'Pelakon' or 'Doktor' when asked by the class teacher in primary school. I almost always said 'Guru' as I believed (somehow) that I was meant to teach. Not only teach, but to help others in life. And guess what? Mum started her childcare centre when I was 10 and being an early childhood educator has been my aim ever since.

I've never thought of leaving home. It wasn't until after CPU that I was persuaded to continue my tertiary education in Sydney. Yes, I understood the logic behind coming here. I mean, ECE was practically non-existent in KL! Even here in Australia, it's one of the more lower-paid and lowly-regarded professions around! Funny how this is the case when in fact, it is the most noble profession there is. So I left home with a heavy heart but 4 years on, I'm thankful to my parents for allowing me the space to actually choose what I wanted to study. And yes, coming here has opened up my mind slightly. Not sure if it has done my temper any good, though.

Upon completion of my degree, the plan was to return home to help mum. Even if I don't, I wanted to start a children's library and art gallery in Sri Kembangan. A far-fetched dream? Hell yeah! But it doesn't mean that it will not come true. I've always been different to everyone else. So why should it matter this time? I won't earn much but it's satisfaction guaranteed (for me at least).

However, that might have to wait. The falling autumn leaves are reminding me that life only happens once. Like how they spring up in lustrous green and wilt in golden splendour, life does not wait to happen - it just happens. And if we don't make full use of it, we will miss the chance to live. But what is life to most of us?

I've realised that coming to Sydney does not open my mind up to new horizons. I've only seen yet another one - that of Australia. Worse, that of only Sydney and Melbourne. That's not much of the world, is it? Hence, I've decided to move on. Yes, I miss home dearly but home can wait until I am prepared to face reality again, to face commitment and responsibility again. I am still young and I feel that it is now that I should explore new faces, new beliefs, new 'lives'. Exploring the new would help me grow even more.

I need to feel challenged. I don't care if the next route I take in life requires me to sing in public, memorise 100 Chinese characters in an hour, speak in Korean, traverse snow fields or act in a movie.

I don't feel like I'm growing anymore. I need a change.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Missing you

Yesterday, I was at Bondi with friends. While some of them went surfing (and they had great waves yesterday), I stayed on the beach. Had a stroll and when the rest of the gang came back from the beer session, I joined the guys in frisbie.

We ended the day with great food, naturally. We had steak at Hog's Breath. Sumptious, just sumptious. Went home contented and surprisingly, still slightly bogged down with the thought of my assignment.

Decided to sleep in the hall with Shaun and Alfred, just for fun. I woke up this morning with my body aching as the mattress was super soft in comparison to mine. I prefer hard mattresses, as I think they are better for your back, and they are definitely more comfy.

But I was happy. Why? I had a dream. A dream of a person very dear to me. He was someone I got to know back in Form 2, back when we were 14. Actually, we weren't exactly 14 as my birthday is on Nov 19, his on Oct 10. I still remember the day his dad brought him to school for his first day. He was standing outside class, peering in every now and then. In my head, I was thinking, "Hey, is he joining our class? Hm, not bad wor. He's quite cute. A bit small though".

That was then. High school was lightyears ago. We developed a friendship, which to me, that was special. We'd have lunch together. I'd get Mum or Dad to send him home. We'd have arguments over the smallest issues. We'd laugh till we had stomach cramps.

I still remember the fight we had over some silly thing in volleyball. He came out to the bus stop to yell at me. I ended up crying and not talking to him for the next few weeks. Don't know how I managed to not talk to him for so long but I was glad that I didn't. Haha... at least I preserved some amount of dignity for myself.

We used to talk over the phone for hours although we'd just seen each other in school. To say that I did not feel attracted to him would be a lie. But I wasn't his type. Definitely not. And so what did I do? I helped spur him on in going after this chun chick who was 4 years our junior. She was a Malaysian-Chinese/French girl. Part-time model. Very sweet-looking girl with blue eyes, blondish hair but a Chinese name.

Did it hurt? Hell yeah. But I did it anyway. I figured that it would be selfish of me to hold on to him. I mean, we wouldn't have worked out anyway. Too unlikely, seriously.

I felt happy for him. I've always felt happy for him in everything he does. He's one person I find really hard not to be happy with, actually. That's so weird!

Even in the dream, he made me happy. Not indirectly like in real life, but directly. It was at his place. In real life, he lives in a condominium but in this dream, it was rather hard to tell. It was his birthday (or was it Ee-Lane's?) Oh well, it was a party celebrating something la. And I was there. I was invited to attend with the rest of our schoolmates. Ok, fast forward. Suddenly, my friends pulled me into the crowd. They were surrounding something or someone. I then saw him in the middle with a big bouquet of flowers. He called my name. I blushed.

Oh no! Did he just say my name? Ok, turn around and run away now. ARGH! So paiseh! Why would he give me a bouquet of flowers?? Why?

And Jeunn, you didn't help! You actually held me back! I so wanted to dash out and just fan myself before I passed out. I turned around to face him again. He walked right up to me. Looked straight into my eyes. I had to look away. I could feel my cheeks were warm. So were my ears. When he arrived right in front of me, he held my hands. Very gently, he put the flowers in my hands and he hugged me. I struggled to hold back my tears. He whispered in my ear like he did so many years ago: Happy birthday, Shij.

But we've moved on with our own lives now. I'm here in Sydney. He's back in KL. He hardly replies my SMSes. He doesn't even answer my calls. I seriously wonder if he's really THAT busy with work.

Am I angry? No. I should be, though. Am I upset? A little. And why? I think it's because somewhere deep inside, I know he still cares and thinks of me, too. He may not think of me everyday but that's not what matters.

What matters are the footprints that he has left in my journey of life.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Hey girl...

Hey girl,

What does life mean to you?
What do you want to gain?
Sure you'd know that life is cruel
Full of suffering and pain

But girl,

Regardless of how near or far
Expensive or cheap
Whether by plane or by car
Clayton or OUG

No matter how life is for you
May it be during your ups
Or even your downs

I am here to support you
In person, over the phone or online
to complain
to cry
to flare up in rage
or just to hear you sigh

I am no Leo
so I would not understand
your real role
or your real strength

But I do know that Leo or not
we are all human who make mistakes
this is not your first, the last it will be not
but you will stand tall and be proud of what you make

You have made it through various obstacles
And this is no exception
Maybe you don't always climb up spectular
But you get up and that is your Leo fashion

Hey girl,

What matters is that you learn
It is painful now

But hey, smile!

For this is only the beginning
You have a long way to go
I'm only a small pebble in your threadings
To help you along your flow

~ My dear, there's no use in me asking you to cheer up but I believe in you and you have to believe in yourself, too. All I can do is just talk and listen to you and be there for you. That's all. The rest is up to you. So remember, you have me (and the rest of us) here for you. ~

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Tagged by Auds

This is tagging season I tell you.... gosh...

6 weird things about myself:

1. I prefer a stone hard mattress compared to a comfy one (Shaun thinks I'm weird because of this)
2. I don't mind working or helping out for FREE (Nic thinks I'm weird because of this)
3. I don't wear tops that are sleeveless out of the house (Nic and most guys think I'm weird because of this)
4. I enjoy cleaning and tidying the house (anyone's house for that matter and yes, it's also Nic and the Mahjong Inc. people who think I'm weird because of this)
5. I prefer a manual to an auto car (Auds, I'm pretty sure you thought I was weird because of this)
6. I'm a girl who doesn't care what others think of my appearance (most guys think I'm weird because of this)

So there, even I think I'm weird sometimes... how did I manage to come up with all that?

Tagged by Josh

LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Voon Shi Jing
Birth Date : November 19
Current Status : Enjoying life
Eye Colour : Dark brown or black, up to you to distinguish
Right of lefty : Right


LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : Pure Malaysian-Chinese Hakka
My Fears : The unknown?
My Weaknesses : I'm a very sensitive person.... so keep away!
My Perfect Pizza : One that doesn't make me fat?


LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : Where's my phone? I have to turn it off!
My bedtime : When I seriously can't keep my eyes open anymore
My most missed memory : My high school days


LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : Neither, they both have high contents of poison
McDonald's or Burger King : Burger King definitely!
Single or grouped dates : I don't really mind as long as the group dates are with people I enjoy hanging out with
Adidas or Nike : Does it matter?
Tea or Nestea : Tea - no flavouring or colouring
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate la of course!
Cappuccino or Coffee : Trying to cut down on both but I thought cappuccino is a kind of coffee?


LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : Hahahaha... NO
Curse : No again
Take a shower : Everyday
Have a crush : Maybe on the current hotshot Malaysian badminton men's doubles pair
Think you've been in love : What is love?
Go to school : Yes, the world is my oyster
Want to get married : Hahaha, that depends....
Believe in yourself : Heck YES!


LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : Yes
Gone to the mall : Yes
Been on stage : Yes
Eaten sushi : Yes
Dyed your hair : Yes


LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game : No and I never will
Changed who you were to fit in : Do I look like a person who will do this?


LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To be married : If I ever do, hopefully it would be before I turn 30


LAYER 9 : IN A GUY...
Best eye colour : No preference
Best hair colour : Natural
Short hair or long hair : Whatever makes him comfortable


LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : Typing out the answers to the above queries
Hour ago : Watching the finals of the Super Series Swiss Open 2007 Men's Doubles on YouTube
4.5 hours ago : Shopping in Eastwood
1 month ago : Preparing for the first day of uni
Year ago : Probably lazing around in the house when I should be studying


LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : teaching the kids at mum's
I feel : a tad sleepy
I hate : having to type up documents just for the sake of typing them up
I hide : my feelings only when I really want to
I miss : home
I need : to buck up with my time management!



LAYER 12 : TAG 5 PEOPLE

Not tagging anyone. Not in the mood to think of 5 people to harrass at this moment.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

F.Y.I.

Hey guys,

Just to let all of you know, if you would like to have a look at my photographs, you should click on the first link to your left called 'Childhood Innocence'. Once in there, click on the link called 'Albums' to your right. You'll find many of my photographs, dating back to perhaps 2005.

Also, I will be starting my fifth (and last) prac tomorrow. Wish me all the best! It's my first prac in a preschool setting and yes, I think I will be quite jittery. I will be spending the rest of tonight typing and printing off pages of stuff to put into my prac folder. And I guess I wouldn't be updating very often. Perhaps I would post one update at the end of the week to release some 'stress'.

Until then, take care and check in at the end of the week. Who knows, I might actually keep to my word this time?

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Dedicated to You

Do you realise that you have grown since arriving in KL?
Can you visualise my grin everytime I read your emails?
Do you know why?

You sound happy. Yes, many of the events are tear-jerkers but you sound like you. Finally.

You constantly 'remind' me of how 'wonderful' I am. Now, I'm going to do the same for you because, honestly, you are an amazing person so please, be proud of yourself.

You went through a childhood different from others. The most notable difference would be your treasure trove of literature. Who else reads like you? You are well-read and I believe by talking to your mum about what you read has helped your analytical thinking tremendously. You do not take things at face value. You go deeper. You are not afraid to think out of the box.

Same goes to how you watch movies. Would you care if it has good-looking actors and actresses? Not really. What matters to you are the messages the movies are getting across - racism, gender issues etc. You prefer to watch movies that do not have a clear-cut ending because you like things that are open to interpretation. That's just you.

Not many people would get you. But you don't mind. Yes, you'd get hurt but that's how you grow. And that's why I think you're stronger and more learned than most of us. In high school, your neighbour looked down on you because you couldn't understand the concepts taught in Add Maths. I connected to you in that way because I seriously sucked at Add Maths, too. You were hurt because you offered her support but you were put down instead. You felt (and I believe, still feel) that you deserved better. I think that it's fine to feel that way because this negative feeling helped you improve. Not in Add Maths but in your dealings with others. Who else talks with confidence and a sense of 'I know a lot but I am still learning more' like you?

Also, how many people in our class volunteers? Does this word even exist in their vocabulary? You are not bothered with material wealth. You are more interested in gaining a different kind of wealth - emotional. This is much more worthwhile as this affects others more than material wealth does. The manner in which we touch others inside is different from superficially impressing others on the outside.

Correct me if I'm wrong but you have much to be proud of. Despite what you think your parents' images of you are, in my opinion, you are unique. You hold your head up high eventhough you choose to go on a path less ventured. The courage mustered just to be yourself is something worth mentioning.

So please my dear friend, smile at your own achievements. People like you do not need rows of trophies or stacks of certificates. You require more meaningful accolades - hugs, warm wishes, an occassional chat with a close friend, smiles from people you've helped, seeing people change due to your efforts, however small.

No one can take all of that away from you. Your pride, your wisdom, your life experiences, your strength, your humility. What am I compared to you? Close to nothing. But I am growing along with you. And I thank you for that.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Impromptu

Guess where I'm at now... Melbourne!

Yes, yes, I didn't plan to visit Melbourne but when you are all alone in an empty unit in Sydney with Ta Seng not living around the corner any longer, you tend to make decisions just like that.

I called Mum on Sunday to talk (as I was seriously bored out of my wits) and I told her that I was toying with the idea of heading down south for the Chinese New Year. I was whining about the silence in the house and how inconvenient it can get when I stay over at XW's. I was not prepared to spend the CNY alone, at a dinner with unknown people or with Petrina's in-laws (how can I have reunion dinner with angmohs??!??) so spending CNY with family, as in REAL family (my bro and 2 cousins) sounded like the best choice.

So I informed Dad that I was going to use his credit card to buy my Virginblue tickets and off I was to Melbourne. The weather here has been fine. Unlike Sydney, which is wet at the moment, Melbourne is warm with cool breezes. At least I managed to sweat when walking Mei Mei to school.

Went to have a look at bro's place. Not bad I have to admit. The house has character. In my opinion, his room has the best layout and size, although I thought that by facing the kitchen, it would smell the worst as time goes by. But the place was clean and looked well-maintained. Hopefully, it will stay this way for a long time to come.

And now, I'd need to call Sydney to arrange my observation days (yes, I am doing work while I'm here, too. It's not all play, you know). After that I'd need to change as we're heading to the city to meet up with Wen Jun for lunch. Hopfully, we'll be able to catch Sharkfin's yam cha session.

Until my next impromptu holiday, Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

SMS

Just received an SMS from Malaysia:

What you have become is the price you paid to get what you used to want - Mignon Mclaughlin

Sender said that this quote reminds her of me.

How sweet...

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Vox is Up!

Hello everyone!

You must be wondering what Vox is. I'ved added a new link to my sidebar for Vox. It's an online magazine for women. Well, of course guys are allowed and welcome too but when I say 'for women', it's along the same lines as magazines like Cleo. BUT, Vox does not focus on what Cleo focusses on - clothings, hairstyles, sex, boyfriends and break-ups etc. Vox is a forum where the voices of young women (like yours truly) are heard. It's a humble website, with a handful of contributors, mostly university, high school students or fresh graduates.

I just had to write about Vox because I am very proud of it. I'm proud of it not just because I have an article published there but because it is a symbol of preserverence and self-belief. It is the brainchild of a very dear friend, of when she was her happiest as a uni student. She, with her best friend from childhood decided to turn her dream of publishing a magazine to reality. They decided to go electronic as of course, this form requires less financial commitment.

Personally, I feel that Vox is not just abother e-mag. Vox is about empowerment. Vox is about respect. Vox is about rights. Vox is about striving for your own success. Vox is about trying.

Just click on the link in the sidebar if you want to know what I mean.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Who Do We Think We Are?

You know, they don't treat us fairly. Just because we are not of the same race. You stay there la. You apply for PR you will be given a fair go. Just like them.


Who is them? Who are we? Why are we classifying ourselves? Why are we practising Otherness when we want our children to learn equity and respect?

I'm not saying that other countries are not as good as ours. All I'm saying is that we all grew up in different environments and thus our view and expectations of life vary. Why impose your thinking on me when I do not expect you to remain in our country? Yes, I sound very passionate when I talk about our Motherland. That is because I truly am. I do not see any shame in being proud of our country and to want to understand her more.

I am often told that the majority race takes advantage of the minority races - they are lazy and expect 'us' to do all the work, to bring fortune and prosperity to the country. We boast about being good at business and that without us, our country will not be in its current state. But why must we think that way? Are we all that special? What makes us more deserving of benefits than the person next to us?

But they are all lazy one la. They prefer government jobs. They prefer to be spoonfed. And they get all the benefits. They don't need good grades or brains, they'll still get what they want.


Do they really? Do we know for sure or are we just really cocky when it comes to making sweeping generalising comments? We don't like it when others say that our race are kiamsiap and are money-minded.

My father asked me a really interesting question - How many friends of the majority race do I have? I was silent. I only have acquaintances, not friends. Even that I can put them all on one hand. Many of us did not grow up with other races. We only have friends of the same race. In a way, I think our perception of other races are skewed because of this. I personally feel that we are the ones who lose out. We are not learning and yet we assume the worst of others.

To be honest, I am not in a position to talk about this issue either because I do not know other races very well. What I do know is that we have no right to criticise others when we do not know better. Yes, we can think. Analyse our situation. But to point fingers? No, that is something that I think will not improve anyone's situation.

Can we stop patronising ourselves? Talking about things is simple. But where does the talking lead to?

Monday, January 22, 2007

Sabah

Finally, some pics from Sabah. For those of you who do not know, I was in Sabah for 4 days with my parents. As usual, AirAsia was late so we were at the LCCT till 7:30pm. We arrived in KK pretty late and guess what we had for dinner/supper... bak kut teh! Spent the night at dad's development company's apartment and the next day we headed off to Ranau, where the national park is. I did not enjoy the trip. That is the truth. I enjoyed the scenery very much but because of the time we spent on the road, it was more or less hell for me. Yes, I have motion sickness.

Ok, I'll let the pictures do the talking. However, I would like to let you guys know that if you have not been to Sabah, please do. The greenery there is amazing. I'm glad that our government has managed to preserve some parts of Malaysia. This part is especially precious due to the vast rainforest, or should I say, botanists' heaven. Some say that the rainforest we have in Sabah may be the oldest in the world! Whoa, the proud feeling I felt when I heard a British lady say that while trekking....

Yes, yes, I'm zipping my mouth now...

Mount Kinabalu in all her majesty...



To get to our little chalet, we had to go up this steep hill...


There's even a balcony for you to relax and enjoy the view from your room... and check out the fireplace and Astro!


And look at the grey stones on the white wall. Don't you think they add character?


I saw my first green snail in Sabah...


On the last day of our holiday, we had so-called dinner at Jesselton Hotel. According to dad, they served really good curry laksa when he was there 5 years ago. Now, it seemed as thought they had switched to Italian cuisine. They even had an angmoh chef (presumably Italian). Two thumbs up for the food! Below was what I had for dessert. It's ice-cream (vanilla and chocolate) filled in a ball of hard chocolate coated with coffee powder. Hmmm......


Sabah, Land Below the Wind, the place where I began my year - year 2007, the Year of the Golden Boar.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

New Year, New List

If you take a closer look, my long list of books has been replaced by one book. Watching the Tree by Adeline Yen Mah was the first book to be read this year - year 2007, the year of the Boar - my year! Bought the book in Berjaya Times Square so that I wouldn't be too bored while waiting for Shaun.

Not going into details today. Have to sort out photographs for distribution. I have to call VK, too. Not sure if he's too happy with today's cancellation.

And yes, thank you all for your patience with the photographs!!!

P/S: I've added Arts and Earth's link as well. Please visit the website to find out more about the lovely people who do more than just TALK about making the world a better place.

Friday, December 29, 2006

Year End

Hey everyone,

Yes, I have been missing in action yet again! (Many of you know that I have stuff to do so thank you for being ever so patient and understanding. Hugs!)

Have been helping mum and also have been catching up with lots of people. Of course, when there's catching up there'll be food la so yes yes, it does seem that I have not gone done in size or weight one bit. Sobs!

Today is the last day of orientiation (and pure madness!) over at mum's. Next week will be a killer week as it will be the first week of the year (and first of their lives!) for many of the kids. Crying, lots of crying, shouting ,screaming, tantrums and drama for sure. I don't blame them. Who would want to feel good in a place full of strangers?

I will be in Sabah this evening (yes, that anonymous message was me) until late Monday night. So buzz me or text me on my mobile if there's anything urgent. Until then, my thoughts and well wishes go out to the victims of the earthquake in Taiwan and the victims of the floods in Johor, Melaka, Terengganu and Kelantan.

Oh, and Happy New Year to all!

Friday, December 15, 2006

Peace

Grandma left to join Grandpa and Greatgrandma for an early Christmas this morning at 3:10am. All her 5 children were at her bedside, along with Mum, Bro and myself. I am glad that I managed to make it to see her breathe her last breath. It was a peaceful passing. Thank you for all your well wishes and concern.

I will be back in KL late Sunday night. See you guys then.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Grandma

Grandma was admitted into hospital at 1:30am. I was suspecting something as dad's mobile rang a few times throughout the night, which is unusual. He was speaking very softly and did not want me to know what was happening.

The doctors would not operate and told us to let her go. All the 5 siblings (my dad, uncle and 3 aunts) all also agreed to let her go. She is 72 and who's to say she did not lead a good life? Well, it depends on what good actually means to you guys.

Grandma is expected to leave today. She was given 24 hours. She's still sleeping peacefully and according to Dad, she's breathing smoothly and has a steady heartbeat.

Why must I have my IELTS speaking test today?!?! I'll be heading over to the hospital as soon as I finish and I honestly hope I will make it to say my goodbyes.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

2 Forms of Contentment (Shij Style)

Emma wanted to speak to me personally. I gave her a call. She was in her office. She wanted to let me know the situation of my marks for my thesis. One marker gave me a Credit. One gave me a Distinction. So now my status is still pending. Still have no news. But I'm happy. Distinction or not, I enjoyed myself a lot and I found my writing style different. I learnt so much from Emma and I am humbled by the vast amount of knowledge my lecturers have and their approachable persona. I am glad I decided to enrol in the Honours program.
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Thom Son (9), Dickson (6), Wi Xi (5) and Wi Zi's (4) mum has not arrived. It was 7pm. By right, if mum implemented her OT strictly, their mum would've needed to pay qutie a large sum. But we're a service to the community and they've been coming to us for so many years now. Thom Son will be 10 next year. He's been coming to us since he was 3. Why bicker over something as trivial as their mum not coming before we close shop?

While driving them to their dad's mobile phone shop, this conversation took place:
WZ: Shi Jing Jie Jie, how come you only have one of that thing?
SJ: What thing?
WZ: Neh, that thing (pointing at the wiper).
SJ: What do you mean?
WX: She said that 'cause we have 2 of those things!
Dickson: Yeah, we do! Many cars have 2. Why do you have only one?
WZ: Is one enough?
Dickson: Oh, I know! I know! Hers is longer! Look, it's almost reaching the side of the windscreen!
WX: Yes, yes!
Dickson: They have to make it longer because her windscreen is bigger.

Thom Son was quietly observing. I smiled. They have figured it out for themselves - their hypothesising, their reasonings, sharing of thoughts. I am definitely in the right field.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Busy Little Honey Bees!

I'm back in KL! Well, I've been back for almost a fortnight now but I only found time to sit and type today. So sorry for neglecting this blog. I know some of you have been waiting for an update.

Well, logically, there can only be one reason for my negligence - business. And I mean really. Oh, and of course it's human nature to blame others so I'll blame TMNet and my bro. Hahahaha... nah, I'll just blame my own time management.

I've been busy helping my mum with training the kids. One graduating class needed to start afresh with new steps and all as their original steps were extremely simple. The fashion show needed narration and now we've just realised that we haven't printed out the invitation cards. Mum's still reformatting the program so I'd have to wait for that before retyping and printing that one. Dad's doing up the certificates and the folders. Tomorrow we'll have our first rehearsal in the Tadika. Tuesday will be a full-dress rehearsal at the hall.

And yes, studying at Honey Bee does make the children more active and hyper - they are so excited and can't wait for Saturday to come!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

To Stand Up When It Matters Most

Something Petra sent to me earlier today. I think she did that because it sorts of reflects the person I am. =) Head to the NST website for the original.

05 Nov 2006
Malik Imtiaz Sarwar

I was recently asked what I thought motivated those who steadfastly pursued ideals and worked towards making them a reality, often demonised or put at risk for doing so.

This Aidilfitri I did not go for prayers with my father, to spare him the discomfort of having to confront the hostility I would have been exposed to. There are those who consider me an enemy of Islam, and there are those among them who have been unduly generous with their viewpoints.

This Eid despite my parents saying that it was all right, I stayed away from them so as not to interfere with their celebrations with friends; even as yet another do-gooder acquaintance of my mother advised her about my activities, making clear her unwillingness to consider an alternative view.

My story is not unique. I have heard it in one form or other from those who have tried to stand up and make a difference. In our history, there have always been those who have been called "anti-government", "anti-establishment", "anti-Malaysia",
"anti-Islam", "anti-Constitution" and a host of other names by those whom I suppose should be called "convenient anti-principles".

Through the years, I have been intrigued at how glibly the labels are thrown about as and when convenient, no matter the apparent contradictions. No matter the lack of sensibility.

But the question remains unanswered; why do they struggle, what pushes them? Some suggest the pursuit of fame. I think there are easier and more conventionally acceptable ways of becoming known. Money? I do not think so.

Many a believer in principle I know has forsaken a lucrative career in the belief that if we put our minds and backs to it, one day, this nation will be a place where all of us can be happy and at peace with each other.

What then, I am asked with some frustration. And I wonder why it is that it can only ever be about fame and money. Where do truth, justice, fairness figure in all of this?

Are we delusional for believing that these factors do have some significance? Are things so bleak that there is no reason for hope?

I do not think so because of the fact that there will always be Malaysians to whom truth, justice and fairness come first and who are prepared to act accordingly.

And as long as they do, and show the way to others who can be inspired to act in like way, there will always be a reason to carry on with the struggle.

In 1996, I was fortunate enough to have been part of a process that would ultimately show me that every so often one would meet the one person that mattered most at the time.

Many may remember that in late 1996, a conference called the "Asia Pacific Conference On East Timor II" was held in Kuala Lumpur.

The conference was broken up by a mob of about 200 people who managed to gain access to the private area where the conference was being held and terrorised the participants.

The police got into the picture and arrested more than 30 of the participants, including R. Sivarasa, Tian Chua, Ivy Josiah, Jacqueline Surin and Syed Husin Ali. The legality of the arrests is currently being challenged in court and I will not speak about that.

The 30-plus arrested participants were taken to the Dang Wangi police station.

A group of five lawyers who banded together purely from the spirit of wanting to assist, worked for the release of the detainees who had been remanded for varying periods.

I wish to record my deep admiration for the commitment shown by those lawyers: Sulaiman Abdullah, Datuk Dominic Puthucheary, M. Puravelan and Ragunath Kesavan (now secretary, Bar Council); I was the fifth.

The negotiations with the police were difficult, in part because they were reacting to the various civil society groups and concerned family members that had encamped outside the police station.

We, too, practically lived there. Operasi Lalang was fresh in people's minds and many feared that the arrests would be converted into ISA detentions.

The lawyers were anxious to get the detainees out as soon as possible. As they emerged to cheers, freed one by one and it began to seem that all would be released, the tension began to dissipate.

By the evening of the fifth day, only 10 more remained in detention. After discussions with the police, we were confident that they would be released at the latest by the next morning.

The next morning told a different story. The 10 were taken to the Kuala Lumpur magistrate's court for a further remand hearing.

We discovered this by chance and immediately assembled, presenting ourselves at the court. It was a tense hearing, with the magistrate about 3.30pm ultimately dismissing our objections.

We had anticipated such a possibility and intended to petition the High Court judge for a review that very afternoon, as in our minds, the decision was wrong. We communicated this to the magistrate, asking for her grounds of decision and the notes she had taken.

These were necessary for our review. Despite our insistence, she told us that these would be available for collection in only about a week's time.

We rushed to the High Court as the 10 were being driven off in a police van, sirens blaring.

The sight strengthened our resolve. Getting there, we were ushered into the chambers of Justice Datuk K.C. Vohrah, then a High Court judge (he has since retired).

He took in the sight of the motley bunch in front of him and gently asked us to explain what we wanted. He heard us out patiently, his brow creased with mounting concern.

Then, with all the indignation of justice denied, he directed his registrar to get the magistrate's file immediately.

Turning to us with a look of anguish, recognising that every second more was a further second of incarceration, he told us that he could only allow for a hearing the next morning so as to give the Attorney-General's Chambers a chance to be heard.

As such, he explained, our clients would have to spend a further night in the lock-up.

I was struck with wonder at the way in which the process was unfolding. This was everything I had learnt the law should be; responsive, decisive and compassionate.

That night, the lawyers worked round the clock and by the next morning, presented an argument that would ultimately define and limit the manner in which the police obtained extensions of the remand period. About 5.30 that evening, Justice Vohrah ordered the police to release the 10 immediately.

It was an inspiring moment, and one I will never forget.

More than the fact that justice was served and the truth had prevailed, Vohrah had shown me that to get there, all it took was a firm belief in doing the right thing as conscience dictated.

Since then, I have had the chance of meeting other courageous judges, whom I cannot name since they are still sitting, and other men and women who have stood up and been counted when it mattered.

What other motivation is there a need for?

* The writer is president, National Human Rights Society (Hakam).